Ako na MAREKLAMO

Hindi ko alam kung mareklamo lang talaga ako or kahit papano eh may karapatan naman akong mag-reklamo. Naman kasi teh, off night na ko ngayon. Night duty na ko mamaya. Tapos kagabi almost 12AM na ko nakaalis ng unit. Buzzer beater kasi kami ng partner ko. Double table pa. Grabe as in tinulungan ko sya sa pag prep, at papers. At nauna silang matapos. Kaso nung endorsement na, biglang nag-stat CS ang isa. So yung pang night, yun na yung inuna. Nag-baby out na rin naman ako tapos yung partner ko nag-eendorse na sa RR. Nung una naasar ako kasi nga hindi na ko marereceive. Pero inintindi ko na lang. Kung ako rin naman kasi yung night iisipin ko na sana maintindihan nung outgoing na toxic ako dahil may stat. Tinapos ko na rin yung case. Ako na nag-endorse pati after care ng room at gamit. Wala naman akong reklamo dun sa ka-endorse ko. Ang reklamo ko ay dun sa partner ko. After nya mag-endorse at magligpit ng room at gamit nya, nawala na. Hindi man lang ako tinulungan kahit soli man lang ng gamit. Oo na, duty pa sya ng 6AM kaso naman hindi na naman sya uuwi. Sabi nya dun na sya matutulog. Eh yun naman pala, saglit na lang naman. Tulong na rin sa ka-partner. Sya hindi na uuwi, ako uuwi pa. At buti sana kung natulog na sya. Eh hindi, nakikipag-landian pa dun sa mga pauwi na. Grabe talaga. Samantalang pag sya, tinutulungan ko magligpit ng gamit at mag-hugas. Ako pa nag-asikaso ng baby's papers nya. Tapos kahit ano man lang tulong wala. 

Actually, napikon talaga ako ng gabing yun. Una, yung NIC ng night late nanaman. Tapos yung NIC namin parang walang pakialam. Kaasar talaga. Nakakainit ng ulo. Sarap mag-dabog. 

Eto pa, kung bakit napikon pa ko sa partner ko. Tinanong ba naman sa kin kung na-endorse ko na ba daw yung isang nasa LR pa. Gusto ko sabihing, hindi mo ba nakitang nag-papaanak ako dito? Ikaw nga dyan unang natapos tapos sa kin mo tatanong. Grrr talaga... Aantayin ko talagang maging magka-partner ult kami. Titiisin ko talaga sya. Kaasar. Hindi naman sa tumutulong ako tapos expecting help in return. Ok lang naman sa kin hindi ako tulungan kaso lang kung mga ganong panahon na, syempre kahit pano nag-eexpect na rin ako ng tulong. Ka-batch ko pa naman sya. Asar.

Not all Trouble was Bad

Everything had come into focus: his smooth  words, his black, 

glinting eyes, his broad experience  with lies, seduction, women. 

I'd fallen in love with  the devil.

Done with the second Hush, Hush book -  Crescendo by Becca Fitzpatrick. I was actually excited to read this because  it felt like a lot of secrets would be revealed in this book regarding  Nora's father and his friend and more of Patch. And then maybe some revenge  for Chauncey and maybe for Dabria.  Although some of them were present in the book,  I still wasn't really that happy with the second book. As much as I so love the first book, Crescendo somehow bored me. It was like I was dying for something else to happen but all I was able to find was Nora and Patch fighting... Nora getting jealous... and Nora trying to shake off Patch out of her life. For heaven's sake, can't she just trust Patch? Actually, I got annoyed at Patch for being with Marcy. But I found Nora more annoying with her trust issues. Patch even tried to go inside her dreams and explain but Nora did not even give him any credit for it. He is trying to make their relationship work despite the threats of the Archangels but Nora just wallowed in her own world of jealousy.

His smile was sexy and warned of trouble, 

but I'd made up my mind that 

not all trouble was bad.

I'm not saying I hate Crescendo. I still like it only not as much as the first book. I still find Patch and his relationship with Nora, hot. And since something happened at the end of the book, which I think is what I am really waiting for, I am expecting more action with the third. And I hope I won't get bored anymore. 

Why was it wrong for us to  be in love? 

Were angels and humans really that different?

Operation: "Sick Leave dahil sa LBM" (weh di nga?)

Ayan. Ang una kong sick leave. Haha. Kala ko kanina hindi pa dadating si Dr. A. Ang tagal kasi. Nakalagay sa pinto 1:00-5:00 kaso halos 3 na ng dumating. Buti na lang nag-antay ako sa may pintuan. Kasi dapat last pa ako, eh since nawawala pa nga yung iba, inuna na ako. Hahaha. Hindi na ko masyadong na guilty kasi wala naman daw nag-straight. Nung patapos na lang daw kasi ang pm shift nagka-toxican. Tapos nalaman ko na may nag 2/10. Absent pa rin kasi yung isang staff. Naisip ko tuloy, kaya pala ako natuloy sa Tagaytay ay para hindi ako  ma-straight at hindi matoxic sa DR. Haha. Ako kasi on-call kaya malamang ako ang straight dapat nun. Hindi ko naman masyadong naffeel na kasalanan ko kasi hindi ko nanaman talaga kasalanan yun... medyo lang. Kasi hindi naman ako yung parang ni-relievan nya. Hindi naman ako yung absent  ng night shift. Tapos nalaman ko na toxic nga daw sila. Tapos eto pa, may umakyat na fully at pumutok sa kanila ang BOW. As in napaliguan sila ng amniotic fluid ng buntis... buti sana kung tubig lang. May hepa daw ang patient. Hindi ko tuloy alam kung ano ba dapat ang maffeel ko. Gusto kong mag-thank you dahil hindi ako yun. Parang buti na lang sumama  ako sa Tagaytay. Gust ko syang sabihin kaya lang parang may mali. Anyway, thank you po kasi hindi ako yun. Kitams. Parang may mali talaga. Parang ang  bad ko. Yaan mo na. Hindi ko naman ginusto yung nangyari. Kahit na hindi ko kasalanan na straight sya, partially, parang may fault din ako. hehe... Anywayz... buti na lang talaga hindi ganun ka-strict yung Dr. At hindi na ko hinanapan ng abstract from ER. Tapos nakapag-pareseta pa ko ng vitamins. 

Pinag-sisisihan ko na rin naman ang pagsisinungaling ko. Ayaw kong sabihin na hindi ko na uulitin kasi baka kainin ko lang. Pero as much as possible ayaw ko nang maulit. 

At dahil dyan, wala akong book hanggang matapos ang buwan. Wala rin akong Korean drama until the end of the month for some reasons. At nagsisimula na akong mainip. Hahaha...

Haaysst. Gusto ko nang ma-upload yung pics. Kaya lang masyado pang maaga. Baka mabuko. Pero gusto ko na talaga. Kinikilig ako. Lolz...

Sick Leave para mag-paka-adik sa Pictures at Koi

Haha... Road trip to Tagaytay para kumain, mag-picture at mag-pakain ng sandamakmak na Koi. Enjoy naman kaso hindi ko super na-enjoy kasi nga "SL" kunwari yung akin. Syempre nung una iniisip ko kung pano ako tatawag para mag-inform sa unit at sa coor. At kung sino ang magsstraight duty ng dahil sa kin. 

Nag-dadalawang isip talaga akong sumama kasi nga "SL". Magsisinungaling ka na, may mapapastraight, tatawag ka pa, magpapa-check up ka pa... Kaya lang super kinukulit talaga ako ng isang tao at ang nakakaasar pa eh kinikilig ako. hahaha... Ang kulit kasi talaga - sa text pati fb. Hindi lang naman sya ang dahilan kung bakit gusto kong sumama. Una kasi amusement park dapat. Gusto kong pumunta dun kasi hindi ko na maalala kung kelan ako huling pumunta dun or kung nakapunta na nga ba ako dun. Hahaha... Tska kasama din kasi yung isang friend ko na super nammiss ko na rin. 

Ang ginawa ko, medyo humingi ako ng signs. Una, pag 6 lang ang staff sa hapon kasama ako, hindi na ko pupunta. Pero kung 7 or more, sasama ako. Tapos kung uulan sa umaga, hindi na rin ako sasama. Sayang lang ang road trip at pamamasyal kung uulan. Ang nangyari, 7 ang staff kasama ako at super umaraw ng morning kaya ayun, go na ang loka. Hahaha. Actually nung una naisip ko na baka mas mabuti pa na mag-straight na lang ako ng 2/10 para at least wala na kong pasok kinabukasan. Puyat nga lang ako pag -gala. At grabe, twice dumating ang opportunity. Absent kasi yung DR. At kung on call ako, straight na ko. Tapos sunod naman, yung NIC eh super late. Tinanong ako ng 2nd in-line kung gusto ko ba daw mag-straight para kasing mas gusto nya na medyo senior ang night kesa junior. Pero dumating din naman ang NIC. At ayun, dahil nga super araw kanina, go na  talaga ako. Na-late nga lang ako sa meeting place dahil traffic. hehe...

Tumawag ako sa unit habang nasa washroom ng Leslie's. Grabe planado ko talaga ang lahat. Nag-load ako ng 300 para may pangtawag ako. Before pa nun, yesterday, kinuha ko na lahat ng telephone numbers na kelangan ko - unit, hospital, operator. Tapos ayun, ok naman. Nakapag-paalam ako. Pero syempre medyo guilty pa rin kasi nga baka may mag-straight. Naglolokohan pa nga kami kung sino ang magsstraight. Pede kasing yung isang ka-batch namin na medyo kabarkada nila. 

Anyways, after kumain, Picnic Grove. Picture kung picture. Kung san pwedeng mag-pose, pose! Nag-punta nga lang ata kami dun para magkaron ng bagong profile pic. haha. Dapat ppunta pa kami ng EK kaya lang medyo napagod na kami kakalakad dun sa Eco Trail kaya nag-Nuvali na lang kami. Strabucks, tapos nag-feed ng Koi. Grabe ang daming Koi. Pag nag-laglag ka ng feeds, super nagkaka-gulo sila na nakakadiri ng tingnan. Pero enjoy silang panoorin. Ang sarap titigan lang. Tapos pictures pa ulit at mga failed na jump shots. Hahaha. Di kasi namin ma-timingan ang pag-talon. Naka timer kasi ang cam at 5 shots. 

Enjoy naman kaya nga lang ako hindi super kasi ilegal ako. Hehe... Sana may next time pa. At sana hindi na ko "sick leave". LoLz.

There was no end to them. They come and go...come and go.

Haha ang drama. Ang totoo teh, I was talking about pregnant moms who kept on coming and going in and out of the Labor Room yesterday until the end of my shift, which by the way, consisted of 16 tiring hours. Yep, I've been admitting and discharging laboring moms and those who have just delivered for the whole shift. Luckily, on my first 8 hours, I had a partner. We had 2 Cesarean section deliveries and 2 NSD's. What's worse is that those NSD's were both service patients! Luckily, again, someone helped us in sedating  the patients so me and my partner were able to focus on attending to the babies and finishing our papers. And seriously, as we discharge our patients, the phone would ring and the other person on the line would tell us that they would be sending a patient over. 

I was able to attend to another service delivery but then I still have 3 other laboring patients na nanganganib na ring mag-table. Buti na lang pay yung 2. Yung isa, service at akala ko sa kin pa manganganak kasi may bronchial asthma daw. About dun sa patient na may asthma, hindi ko alam kung pagod na nga lang ba talaga ako or napipikon na ako kaya medyo wala na akong pakialam. Ang lakas ng loob kong mag-insert ng IV. As in nag-insert ako without having second thoughts. Sabi ko, bahala na. As in nagulat ako kasi ang lakas talaga ng loob ko. Parang walang pakialam kung ma-in ko or hindi. Luckily, na-in ko! Madugo nga lang. LoL. Anyway, pina-back to room din yung patient kaya lang may table nga ako kaya hindi ako yung nag-hatid. Tapos syempre may 2 pang pay sa LR kaya hindi rin ako makapag-focus masyado dun sa NSD. 

Mangungulit ang residente, dadating ang anes, mag-oorder, at kung anu-ano pa. Mag-isa lang ako kasi may case sa kabila. Ok na rin at least na kaya ko ng walang tulong, except sa paghahatid. Eh kasi naman, hindi naman talaga ako makalabas. 

Grabe talaga. Eto pa, hindi rin ako masyadong matahimik kahit pay na yung 2 natira kasi ba naman G4 at G5 na 5 at 6cms. Nanganganib mag double table samantalang hindi pa ko nakaka-recover dun sa service ko. Buti na lang yung isa, malayo yung consultant kaya hindi pa nila pinapakealaman - wala pang sinto at xspas. Yung isa, medyo mabagal ang progress kaya inabot pa ng umaga. Kahit wala na akong napaanak, hindi pa rin nga ako matahimik kasi maya't-maya nagri-ring ang phone. Tapos ER pa. Ibig sabihin, may patient ang OB sa baba. 

Fortunately, as in luckily, mga 6:30 tapos na ang endorsement nung nag-decide mag-CS ang isa. Buti na lang talaga. Eh mga 4am andun na yung consultant. Buti medyo nag-hintay pa sila. Kung hindi, sakin pa bumagsak. Ok lang sana kaya lang ibig sabihin nun, yung NIC ang scrub ko kung pede nga yun, at ang maiiwan na lang na makakakilos eh yung RR na busy din sa kabila kaya wala na talagang tutulong sa kin pagn nagka-toxican. May habit pa naman sa DR na kapag toxic, nag-sasabay-sabay. Tulad na nga lang kanina. Nung nag-decide mag CS, nag-eendorse pa lang ako nun. Tapos nag-ring ang phone at nagsabi na may dadaling patient. Tapos nag-ring ulit at may dadalin pa daw ulit. Tapos nang-totoxic ang isang residente na maghanda na daw ng pang-epid dahil pag dating nga patient eh epid kaagad. Ang sarap sagutin kasi magcCS nga yung anes, syempre unahin nya yun. Adik talaga. 

Actually, madaling araw pa lang, naririnig ko na yung about dun sa 2 patient na yun. May admission nga daw si Dr. ganyan at ganon. Buti na lang hindi sa kin pumasok kasi nga mukang malapit ng manganak kasi nagmamadali na siland pa-epid. Mga adik talaga.

Haaaayyyst. Sakit ng paa ko. Hindi ako masyadong naka-upo. Balik-balik sa CSR, LR at DR. Buti mabait NIC namin. Sya nag-hatid ng mga back to room ko at nag-sundo ng mga cases sa AM. After everything, kinaya naman. Ok na rin. Nanghihinayang lang ako, kasi last night, nag-kayayaan uminom ang mga ka-batch ko. He invited me kaya nga lang straight ako. Gusto ko sana sumama. Hindi lang para uminom, para na rin maki-bonding. Haha... 

Anyways... Pero natuwa talaga ako nung nag-insert ako ng IV. Haha...

I'll show you how angels dance

I am sooo in love with Daniel and Luce right now.

"How many lives do you need to live

before you find someone

worth dying for?"

I am so much in love with the second Fallen novel - Torment by Lauren Kate. Unlike the  first book which took me some time to read, I could not stop flipping the pages of Torment. Even though there were a LOT of cheesy and mushy stuff happening when Daniel meets Luce, I was able to survive them all. LoL. Even though there were times when I am asking if they should really be hungry like that. Hahaha... Well maybe Daniel is like that because of his frustrations and longings for I'm not sure how many millenia have passed since when Luce turns 17, and they kiss,  she burns - literally until this lifetime.

"It must have been part of Daniel's punishment. 

That she was bound to him forever,

like a marionette to its puppeteer."

"Gazing at him, feeling his touch - 

the rest of the world faded into the background"

Anyway, about the story, I like it how the author provided a secret world for angels, like the Shoreline school where Nephilims or humans with angel bloodline study. Although it reminded me somehow of Hogwarts, I actually like it. I actually thought at first that it would be just like other tragic love stories with star-crossed lovers added with a fallen angel to spice up the story.  I thought angels here would be like very rare and so much kept underground.  But in the Fallen series, there is actually a community of angels, demons and half-angels.  And aside from just angels and demons, the author added more kinds of angels like Nephs and the Outcasts, and then there were also other beings or creatures like the Announcers and the starshot barterers. I like how the series did not only focused on the romance part but also on the fantasy part.

"Would love be different with someone else? 

Was love even possible with someone else?

Love was supposed to be easy, wasn't it?

Then why did she feel tormented?"

Although I am frustrated for a lot of questions. There is still soooo much to learn about the real story between Daniel and Luce. There are still a lot of things that has to be revealed like the issue with the Outcasts and why they can't allow them to go back. Why Luce would die with a starshot when she is actually human? Remember, Cam shot the Outcast whom he thought was Luce and said that it was better for her to die or something like that. Why the demons want Luce? Is Daniel really the angel who would tip the balance? Who cursed Luce and Daniel? Why Trevor self-combusted but Miles did not? And so on and so forth.

"Take off your shoes,

and I'll show you how angels dance."

I am dying to read Passion, the next novel, but I still have to wait for a year before it comes out! Poor me. I hope the next novel would be revealing more about Luce's past.

Waahhh... Can I have my own Daniel!?

Would he find her?

Without question.

Would he save her?

Always.

Kelangan ganun Managinip!?

I always dream of holding someone or hugging someone. Last night, I dreamed again of hugging someone. But it wasn't just "someone". Yup, it's him. In my dream, we saw each other and said hi then he went somewhere else to greet some of his friends. Then he went back to me and held out his arms for a hug. So I went up to him and hugged him. Waahhh it felt so true. We were hugging each other because we were missing each other so much. I really don't know why I dreamed about him again. Maybe because last night, he visited us in the unit, but I was busy attending to a delivery so I wasn't able to make kulit with him. He only called me and I hastily went to greet him. I really miss him. 

Hugging

To dream that you are hugging someone, symbolizes your loving and caring nature. You are holding someone or something close to your heart. Alternatively, it may indicate your need to be more affectionate. - http://www.dreammoods.com/

The dream really felt real. I am soooo pathetic. Bawal bumalik okay? Para walang asahan. Hahaha... Pero miss ko na sya...

Kim Tak Goo!

King of Baking, Kim Tak Goo or Bread, Love and Dreams is a South Korean drama from KBS. I wasn't really planning to watch it at first because of the number of episodes (30) but I got curious with it so I decided to gave it a try. The first few episodes were actually interesting despite the usual family conflict of having affairs and illegitimate children and heir issues in dramas. I'm not really sure why I got hooked in it even though I got bored for some parts because I've been wanting to see the grown up Kim Tak Goo. Maybe it was the story, plot and the turning of events. Anyway, my patiently waiting paid off when I saw Yoon Shi Yoon! He is really cute even though he greatly reminds me of Lee Jun Ki.

Kim Tak Goo is the eldest son of Goo Il Jong, the chairman of Geosung Foods Enterprise, a legend in the baking industry. Although he is an extremely talented baker and seemed destined to succeed his father as president, Goo Il Jong's family plotted to rob him of his inheritance because he was born to Il Jong's mistress. Tak Goo's determination to become number one in the baking industry drives him to rebuild his career from scratch despite the many trials he faces. - wikipedia

I am so loving this series. Action, comedy, romance, drama -all in one. Great actors, lovable and hateful characters... I love Kim Tak Goo and his father and the grandmother, Yang Mi Sun, Teacher Pal Bong, In Mok, Jin Goo... I so hate Ma Jun and his mother and Manager Han. As for Yu Kyung, I  love her for pissing off the mother but I also hate her for making Tak Goo cry. I know she just wants revenge to the mother but she did not realized that Ma Jun was not just pissing off her mother but also is taking away important things from Tak Goo. 

I hate Ma Jun for doing cruel things to Tak Goo but I somehow understand him why he hates him so much. He'd been seeking for his father's love, attention and recognition all his life and just when he was about to finally receive it, Tak Goo came into the picture. I somehow feels sad for him but I still hate him. Even though the father is to be hated because it is actually his  fault why Ma Jun feels resentment, I could not really hate him because he loves Tak Goo more. Sorry for me being biased ~wink. I  just also love Tak Goo more. As for Ma Jun's mother, I don't feel sorry or any pity for her even though her husband was the one who had an affair first. She is evil along with the ungrateful Manager Han and they both deserve to be buried alive. Lolz...

I really, really love Tak Goo!!!

I'm crying for Phoenix and Darina

The ending of Beautiful Dead was really heartbreaking. I was just able to finish it a while ago and until now, I feel like crying for them. Actually, I was crying while reading the last chapter and the epilogue. I could not hold back my tears while Phoenix and Darina were walking until he let go of Darina's hand. After reading the book, it felt like it would take a while for me to feel happy again. I really, really feel sad for them. Their love seems so true but then they would not be able to spend their lives together anymore because of Phoenix's death. Waaahhh. I still feel sad.

The more you want something, the more certain you are to lose it. 

It doesn't stop you wanting it anyway.

Anyway, isn't it that I had a few comments about the series, like the everyone-wants-her issue and the time-travelling-thing? Well, I don't care about them anymore. My sadness for the two of  them was so overwhelming  that I have forgotten about those issues. Actually, they still time-traveled but as I've said, I don't care about  it anymore. Anyway, finding Phoenix's killer actually came hard and dangerous. 

I was just confused about something. Isn't it that in Summer, Darina and Hunter were able to pin down Ezra while they were back in time? But in Phoenix, Darina was able to put her hand on the living Phoenix's arm but he did not feel it. And also, he was able to walk right through her. Any tricks Hunter?

Speaking of Hunter, I knew it! Darina is related to  Marie. She was actually their great, great granddaughter. At first I thought she could be her reincarnation or something because they said that she somehow resembles her. But when I learned that Marie had a daughter, it also came to my mind that it would also be possible that she is a descendant or something. Hunter's second death was sad but I think he felt happy.

Sometimes the truth hurts, but without it, we can't move on.

Anyway, next issue - everyone-wants-her thing. Actually, that topic was not touched in the last book. My suspicion with Lucas and Brandon was not true. Lucas dated another girl and Brandon was just really taking care of her, out of guilt I guess. Actually the out-of-guilt part was just my idea. It wasn't really stated in the book but that was how I felt it. The finding of Phoenix's killer was also very heartbreaking. I knew it that Brandon knows something but I did not expect that he was the one. Anyway, it was an accident. I also feel sad for him because out of all of them, he is the one who is suffering the most.

Who needs a picture on show when you have memories 

like mine to bear you up and carry you through life?

I sooo love it despite the ending being super sad. Until now, when I reread the last chapter and the epilogue, I still cry. It was so sweet and sad especially the last lines...

 Any time, any place? I ask, gazing out across the glittering lake.

A breeze disturbs its silver surface. In a heartbeat, Phoenix promises.

Waahhhh... Super ♥ ♥ ♥. I want to cry again.

one person - one post - three words...

Three words. Three simple words that I almost missed. Waaahhh. He posted it on my wall yesterdat night but I was only able to read it after 23 hours. Actually, he only said "i miss you!! =c" pero grabe ang effect sa kin. Umasa ba daw? Wala lang. Kasi naman bakit biglang nagpo-post ng ganun sa wall ko? Actually I saw him kanina. Dumaan kasi sya sa OR. Tapos sakto andun ako sa may info may tinatawagang ward para mag-inform na may ihahatid at susunduin. Katabi ko pa nga si Dr. Lopez eh  haha. Wala lang. Buti na lang hindi ako DR. Kasi kung DR ako malamang wala ako dun. Sayang nga lang kasi nung mga oras na yun hindi ko pa nababasa yung message nya. Grabe na-miss ko din sya. Nilapitan nya ako sa may info para mangulit. Tinanggal yung bonnet at tali ng buhok ko. Kaya lang hindi ako makapag-kulitan sa kanya kanina kasi nga tumatawag ako nun sa phone tapos umalis na rin sya agad. Ang nasabi ko lang nung paalis na sya, miss you ***, b-bye. Natawa sya tuloy kasi dire-diretso daw yung pagkakasabi ko - miss you, bbye. Haha... Hindi ko pa sya natingnan mabuti kasi nga busy ako sa phone. lolz. Pero ok na din. Floater kasi ako nun tapos nakikigulo sa DR dahil tapos na ang maaga kong case na ortho. Haha... Buti na lang good mood si Dr. Bernardo. Anyway, pag di ko sya nakikita ok lang. Pero pag nakita ko na sya ulit... ayun. patay... May gustong bumalik. Siguro kung mag-kakasama ulit kami ng matagal babalik talaga. Tapos mare-realize ko na hindi pa pala ako over him. Lolz... 

Baka naman nami-miss ko lang sya talaga. Kaya lang nung nabasa ko yung post nya tapos may sad face, grabe ang impact. Ang mga pinag-hirapan kong itago at kalimutan, gustong bumalik. Ang sweet kasi diba? Out of the blue biglang magppost ng ganun. Eto naman ako si feelingera gustong umasa. Haha...adik. baliw. Sana makasama ko ulit sya minsan ng matagal-tagal. Kain or kwentuhan or tambay. Ang loser ko talaga. Hahaha....

Time! Money! and more Time!!!

Time to download and watch Asian and American Series...

Money to buy books...

 And more time to read all those books.

At last, I was able to buy Torment by Lauren Kate. I am so excited to read it but I want to finish Phoenix, the last book in the Beautiful Dead series first. Grabe gusto kong tumira sa National at bumili nang bumili ng libro. Nung una hindi ko nakita yung Torment. Ang nakita ko yung Phoenix kaya kinuha ko agad. Tapos I also saw Clockwork Angel yung first book sa Infernal Devices series ni Cassandra Clare. Dapat yun na yung bibilin ko along with Phoenix. Kaya lang when I went to the Customer Service to ask for Torment, meron pa pala silang isang natitira. Akala ko wala pa sila. Yun pala wala na. Since nag-iisa na lang, I bought it na lang instead of Clockwork. Grabe super nanghihinayang ako sa dun sa Clockwork. Gusto ko din kasi yun. Pero sana kasi mabasa ko muna yung Mortal Instruments para mas masaya. Pero alam ko hindi naman talaga sya parang kelangan. Tapos gusto ko din ng Hunger Games. Tska yung Immortal Series ni Alysson Noel. I really need more time. Kelangan ko nang matapos yung Phoenix para Torment na. Kasi malapit na rin lumabas yung Cresendo, yung kasunod naman ng Hush, Hush. 

Ang problema kasi, gusto ko din manood ng mga series. Napapasabay kasi. Like now, I'm watching Playful Kiss and King of Baking, Kim Tak Goo. Yung PK ongoing pa kaya ok lang kahit medyo ma-delay ang panonood. Yung Kim Tak Goo, tapos na yun tapos 30 episodes kaya kelangan manood nang manood. Ewan ko ba kung bakit bigla kong naisip manood nun. Kasi mataas ang rating sa Korea tsaka ang pogi ni Tak Goo. Haha... Kamukha nya si Lee Jun Ki. Yun pala yung pumalit sa Cinderella's Sister. Tapos may isa pa akong gustong panoorin. Yung Fugitive Plan B. Si Rain naman dun tapos action. Muka kasing maganda. Tapos may inaabangan pa ako yung Athena: Goddess of War, yung spin-off ng Iris. Grabe na toh. Sana matapos ko lahat yan. Hahaha... 

Hindi ko naman talaga ganun ka-problema yung money. Kasi may sweldo na naman ako tska wala naman akong ibang ginagastusan. Mas masaya lang pag madami kasi hindi ka mang-hihinayang bumili ng bumili kahit hardbound. Tska ayoko rin naman kasi ng gastos nang gastos. Baka pag kelangan ko na wala. Tska problema nga kasi talaga yung oras. May pambili nga, wala namang oras mag-basa. Anong gagawin ko. display na lang? Titingnan ko na lang sila sa shelf? Hahaha...

Bakit mabenta ang yelo!?

Super kanina. Surgery day pero nakikisabay ang mga  buntis. Hindi ako DR (buti na lang :P) pero syempre dahil maaga natapos ang case ko, tumulong na ako dun. About my case muna... First time MICU. Syempre sino ba naman ang hindi matatakot sa MICU? Toxic na, baka mag-code pa. Tracheostomy pa naman yun. Buti na lang hindi ganun ka-toxic yung patient. Natoxic lang ako nung una kasi biglang nag-pasign ng consent sa relative para magkaron ng anes. Buti na lang hindi toxic ang mga tao kaya medyo madaming tumulong. At hindi rin bad mood ang NIC namin. Pero nag-aalala talaga ako nun. As in, inaantay ko na, anytime, may sasabihin or mapupuna at mapapagalitan ako. Haha... pero buti na lang, wala. Thank you po. Hehe... Problema ko lang papers. Kasi mabilis lang yung  case at hindi pwedeng tutukan ang papers kasi nga tracheostomy yun. Kaya sa MICU na ko nag-ayos at nag-tapos ng papers. After nun, dapat tutulong na ko sa DR, kaya lang nag-mamakaawa yung pang-rounds. Nakahanda  na kasi. Alangan namang dedmahin ko. Malamang mapapagalitan na  talaga ako nun. So nag-rounds muna ako. May tumulong naman.

Tapos after maibalik ang lahat, diretso DR. Tumulong mag-admit, mag-bigay ng gamot at mag-monitor. Maya-maya, tumawag ang chief res ng OB, hinahanap ang AAOD... nagpapahiwatig. Ayun, may CS from ER. Nakiusap ang OB sa outgoing na AAOD na baka pedeng gawin yun. Pumayag naman. Ako scrub. May service na nka-table sa kabila na for NSD na super ingay. Tapos sa isa pang room, pelvic lap. Natapos ang pelvic lap, closing na ang CS namin, naka-table pa rin ang kawawang buntis. Sakit na sakit na. Maya-maya pa, sabi ng mga residente, CS na. Takbo ulit ang mga tao, kuha ng gamit, prepare. Hindi pa kami tapos inaayos na yung kabila. Pero dahil kelangan ng umuwi ng outgoing na anes, yung duty na ang pinaki-usapan. Sumingit ang OB, nagalit ang surgery. Wala naman kasing laban ang surgery. Dalawang buhay ang nakataya. Nainis lang ang surgery kasi nga may consultant sila tapos na-delay sila dahil nga may sumisingit. Akala namin tapos na. Nag-ring ang phone at ayun... CS daw ulit from ER. Nakakaloka. Takbo, kuha ng gamit, prepare. Akala ko nung una ako ang mag-ccirculate. Kasi ang dami pang admission ng DR. Yun pala ako ang scrub. Eh di sige. tumawag na ng consultant na anes para makisuyong tumulong. Buti pumayag. 

Grabe talaga ang araw na to. Muntik na mapuno ang LR sa dami ng buntis. At hindi lang basta-basta buntis. Puro naka MgSO4 at 24 hour urine. Pati VS, Q1. Ewan ko kung anong meron bakit sabay-sabay sila. Kaya mabenta ang yelo nung araw na yun. Lahat na sila na ka Mags... urine at VS monitoring. Ano bang pinag-gagawa ng mga buntis na yun at nag-taasan ang mga BP?

Medyo late na kami natapos kasi ang dami pa ngang inen-dorse. Eto pa natawa ako. Ang daming baby's papers. 4 na Kelly ang nakuha ko sa bagong NSU. Ako na kumuha kasi hindi pa tapos ang 2 sa mga papers nila. Tapos nun, kumain kaming 3. 3 na lang kami kasi nauna na yung iba. Nainip kaya hindi na nakahintay at umuwi na pag-katapos kumain. Grabe talaga yun.

Habang kumakain, tawanan at kwentuhan ng kung anu-ano... mga issue at reklamo sa buhay. Haha...

Kala ko 3 lang... 6 pala! Hahaha...

The only plan was just to eat out after duty like usual. Kaya lang biglang may nakitang iba at nag-kayayaan na. Nung una sabi nila  3 bottles lang daw. Eh di sige. Since maaga pa naman at wala naman kaming kasamang malalakas, pumunta kami. Hanggang sa ndi namin namalayan, 6 na pala! Isang case na kaya yun. Haha... Kala namin hindi kaya. Puro babae (7) pa kami at isa lang lalaki, eh hindi naman yun malakas uminom. 6 na Red horse. Lolz... Grabe... tawanan, kwentuhan, biruan, asaran, inom at chichirya. Hindi naman talaga ako nalasing. Tipsy lang. Alam ko naman kasi kung hanggang saan lang ako. Isa pa, nakakatayo ako at nakaka-wiwi unlike nung outing namin. Grabe talaga ang tawanan. As in yun yung mga moment na hindi mo talaga ipag-papalit sa pag-uwi ng maaga.  Bukod sa usual na asaran, meron pa kaming kalokohang ginawa ng friend ko. Nag-aasaran kasi kami na kunwari heart-broken ako dahil nga kay Eric and Ariel. Siguro nga medyo may tama na rin ako kaya super nakikipag-biruan ako ng ganun. 

Yayayain kasi dapat namin sya. We called him on my fone kaya lang hindi sinasagot. Mukang tulog pa kasi from night duty. Tapos maya-maya nag-text - bakit po? I deleted na kasi my messages kaya hindi ko na malalagay yung sakto. Basta yung thought na lang. Tapos me and my friend decided na lokohin. He replied to him using my fone - Bakit mo ako pinaasa? Then he asked - what do you mean? My friend replied again - Akala ko ako. Yun pala si  Ariel. Nasaktan kaya ako. Tapos super natawa ako kasi sineryoso nya. He said - Sorry if you misunderstand my ways. Hindi ko man lang sinaalang-alang ang feelings mo. Grabe akala nya talaga ako yung nag-ttext. Hmm... muka ba talagang magttxt ako ng ganun? Haha... Syempre hindi ko na natiis. Feeling super gwapo na ang loko. Kaya nireplyan ko ng - hala. bakit ganun? may tinext ba sau si ano. Hiniram nya kasi yung fone ko. Tapos kunwari wala na yung friend ko kaya ndi ko na natanong kung ano yung text. Tapos nag-reply sya ng - ah si ano lang pala. Wala yun. Hehe... Super tawa talaga kami.

Haaayystt. Buti na lang sumama ako. Syempre nagmamadali rin kaming umuwi kasi manonood  pa kami ng Imortal. Haha... adik lang.

Taking no Heed Paid off

LoL. I just wanted to say that ignoring him/ paying no attention/ treating him unlike before/ being cold to him paid off! It's not that I should be celebrating or something. At least now, I don't have to worry about hurting him when worse comes to worst. Maybe I have hurt him in the past by being like that pero at least now, he won't be paying any attention to me anymore. At baka maging close na kami ulit. Eh kasi, naman nalaman ko na meron na syang ibang gusto. Sabi ng nya, hindi ligaw; porma. LoL ang hirap tumawa mag-isa. Sige, I'll write from the start...

The other day, I was very excited matapos ang shift ko, kasi I'll be going to National Bookstore to buy Torment by Lauren Kate. As in super excited ako na umuwi. And when our shift ended, I was very happy and excited. Dapat nga hindi na ko sasama kumain para makaalis na ako agad. Kaso lang halos lahat sila kakain at nagugutom na rin naman ako, kaya sumama na ako. Sabi nila, hindi daw sila magtatagal kasi may pupuntahan sila kaya go na rin ako. Medyo nag-tagal pa nga kami, kasi may isa pang humabol. Pero ok lang I can still make daan to SM. Tapos nung medyo malapit na kami umuwi, one of my good friends (yung lalaki) texted me. He said kelangan nya ng kausap. I thought baka toxic sila at naiinis na sya dahil hindi sya tinutulungan ng partner nya. So I replied. Kaso hindi ko kinaya yung sunod nyang text. 

 

For the heck of it, I'm going to use code names - Eric and Ariel. Wala lang. Yan kasi code namin sa kanila ng isang kong friend (yung babae) para makapag-kwentuhan kami ng maayos pag duty. He said that Eric was trying to make ligaw to Ariel! As in yung reaction ko, super gulat na gusto ko tumawa. Para akong baliw. Natatawa ako mag-isa while reading his texts. Napansin pa nga ng katabi ko. Ayun, sunod-sunod na text at reply ang nangyari. Hanggang sa hindi na ko nakatiis, nakalimutan kong dadaan ako ng NB para bumili ng Torment. Napatakbo ako pabalik sa taas.

Super natutuwa ako at kinikilig. Siguro kasama na rin yung relief na hindi ako ang pinili nya. Nalaman ko na they were always exchanging texts. Tapos sabi ni Eric kay Ariel kung gusto ba daw nya pumunta sa bahay nila next weekend. Ariel asked what they will do, he answered ipapakilala kita sa parents ko. I'll say you're someone special. Shet! Shet talaga! Hindi ko alam kung tatawa ba ako or ano. And he calls her baby. Tapos he said that he's going to wait for her. Grabe talaga. We asked Ariel and magulo ang mga sagot nya. Pero feeling ko she's falling or something. Pero magulo talaga ang sagot nya. Tapos naguilty ako when I heard na he was telling her sorry kasi nalaman namin yung about sa kanila. And he said na wag na lang kaming pansinin. Feeling ko tuloly baka medyo nahhurt na sila kasi pinag-kakatuwaan namin sila. Pero grabe. Tumatawa talaga ako mag-isa habang nagbabasa nung mga text.

Tapos medyo after ko syang kausapin about dun, change topic naman. I told her something about Kim Nam Gil na super crush nya. Tapos hindi pa ko tapos magkwento, out of the blue, she said uy wag naman kayong ganyan, mabait naman sya. Napatingin ako sa knya with a wtf face - teh, hindi naman yun ang pinag-uusapan natin. Kelangan talaga isingit? Grabe na talaga. Tapos she was doodling heart shapes. Grabe talaga. 

Naisip ko, siguro kung tulad pa rin kami ng dati, yung hindi ako lumayo, baka natuluyan sa kin yun. Kasi si Ariel, lagi kaming inaasar. Tapos I heard from her na kinakausap nga daw nya yun palagi. Super bubbly naman kasi si Ariel kaya ayun siguro na-fall. Tapos laging naka-GM si girl at siguro lagi nyang nirereplyan. 

Kaya lang naisip ko, panu kaya yun? Eh hindi naman pede ang mag-on. Kelangan lumabas ang isa. Matutuloy kaya yun?

The worst-tempered people I've ever met were people who knew they were wrong. ~Wilson Mizner

During our monthly meeting for the month of October, I witnessed something which I thought at first would be all right. But as it progressed, I felt that it was too much. Meron kasing nag-reklamo about somebody. At first we were laughing. Kaya lang sumagot yung tinamaan kaya ayun, sunud-sunod na tuloy ang banat. Lalo na yung isa na sobrang galit na galit kala mo naman super laki ng kasalanan. Akala mo naman hindi sya nag-kakamali at nakakalimot. Kaso lang sumagot pa rin kaya ayun, halos napag-tulungan. Akala ko nung una ayos lang at least malalaman nya na mali sya. Kaya lang sumobra yung kaaway nya. Sobrang galit, kung matanda lang yun, baka inatake na sa puso. Grabe. Naawa tuloy ako sa kanya. Alam kong nag-kamali rin kasi siya dahil sumagot pa sya. Kaya lang sobra din naman yung pangalawang nag-reklamo. Kelangan ba talaga ganun bumanat? Sobrang life and death situation ba yung nangyari at kelangan ganun sya mag-taray? Feeling ko tuloy ang nangyari, since parang napag-kakaisahan na yung bata, nilubus-lubos na niya. Para muka syang bida. Gets mo? Pwede naman kasing kalmado. Ewan ko. Hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako sanay sa way ng pananalita nya pati ugali nya. Hindi ko naman sinasabing may attitude sya. Pero kasi, iba talaga. Hindi lang kami makaalma kasi marami rin syang kakampi.  

Hindi lang ako ang nakakapansin na ganun sya. Pati yung isa kong girl na friend. (I only have two good friends there right now - a girl and a boy. Sila yung lagi kong nakkwentuhan ng mga bagay-bagay.) Magkaka-batch kami, bakit kelangan mag-toxican? Tapos ayaw nya ng tinotoxic sya. Kahit sya yung mali, sya yung naiinis. Like the other day, I told her super nicely na wag ng sulatan ng ganun. Pero ok na yun for now, next time na lang. Sabi ba naman, ah ganun ba, sige pasulatan na lang ulit... sabay kuha nung papel. Sabi ko, wag na ok na yan, basta next time na lang. She said, ndi baka makita pa, ulitin mo na lang.  Sa isip-isip ko, kaya sinabi ko na ok na yun, para hindi na nya ulitin. Kaso ang nangyari, ako pa pala ang pauulitin nya. Kung ako yun, dahil ako nag-sulat, ako nag-kamali, ako ang uulit. Hindi naman sa tinatamad akong ulitin. Para lang kasi hindi sya ma-offend or something. Kaya lang, sya pa nainis.  At sa huli, ako na rin ang nag-ulit.

And then the other day, meron nanaman syang napansin. Hindi naman super big deal. Kasi  nagawa ko na rin yun dati. Ang alam ko medyo ok naman na pumirma kahit sino kahit hindi sya yung gumawa basta sya yung nag-explain or something lalo na pag emergency na. Ewan ko ba kung naghahanap lang ba talaga sya ng mali, oc-oc, o nagbibida-bidahan. Ayun, umulit pa tuloy ng consent. At sa huli, kami din ng partner ko ang nag-paulit kahit na hindi kami ang nag-pagawa nun.

Ano ba, masyado lang ba talaga akong mareklamo? Ewan....