It's just hours before another year starts for me, and I don't know why I'm feeling this way. I'm feeling down... not really depressed, just down. And maybe anxious... for I don't know what. Seriously, I don't know why. Maybe I'm just tired? Because I'm feeling so sleepy? Or maybe because I'm going to my workplace tomorrow instead of celebrating and resting? Well, technically I'm not 'working' tomorrow because we have this retreat thing. But still, I was actually hoping that I would be spending most of my birthday at home or somewhere else except at the hospital.
A few minutes ago, I watched this video about a very tiny baby who was able to undergone a lot of surgeries which added to my blues and made me cry... hard. So now, I'm feeling more tired and I feel that I really need to sleep now but it feels like I also don't want to sleep yet.
I would like to expect something tomorrow, but of course, I can't since I know nothing special would really happen. I hate this feeling. It's like I'm feeling nervous but I don't know why I should be. This feeling really sucks. Probably it would be better if no one would know about tomorrow.
Sucks... greatly.
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