Let's go to Sanggojae!!!

 Jeon Jin Ho, a budding architect, is a straight guy who pretends to be gay in order to become a roommate to Park Gae In, the owner of a mysterious house that has never been opened to outsiders. His hobbies include organization and ironing, and he’s known for his stoic poker face. He’s a stickler for cleanliness, but he also has a talent for figuring out women’s feelings. Kae In is very trusting even though she has a habit of being betrayed. However that doesn’t stop her from giving people the benefit of doubt and Jin Ho is no different. How will Kae In react when she finds out that her gay roommate is not actually gay at all and that he has fallen for her? - wikipedia

Actually, I was supposed to be watching the 6th season of House but then it suddenly crossed my mind that I want to watch a Korean series. It's not that I'm bored with House. It just felt like I want to see hot Korean actors. While I was browsing for some series, Personal Taste came into my mind because of the H-O-T Lee Min Ho. Actually, after watching a few episodes I got a little addicted to it - not as in Goong or You're Beautiful addicted... just a little. Enough for me to want to continue watching until the end. I think Lee Min Ho is the real reason why I really wanted to keep watching. The series and the actors are good. I like the storyline and how it went. I love Lee Min Ho and Son Ye Jin and their characters and I hate the In Hee and Chang Ryul characters soooo much I wanted to push them off the cliff. LOL. I also love the ending because it felt like it worked out for everyone and that they were all happy. I was actually smiling so much at the end. I also love their songs and Can’t Believe It by Younha and Creating Love by  4Minute are my favorites. 

Oh yeah, aside from LMH another reason why I was curious about the series is because of Yoon Eun Hye's cameo as Jin Ho's ex-girlfriend. Even though it was just one episode, I love her appearance. And she was actually using a Coffee Prince mug when the three of them went out for drinks. I hope one day YEH and LMH can make a drama together. 

After I finish House, I'm planning on watching Cinderella's Sister. I've been reading  the synopsis for quite some time but because of the names I'm quite confused and could not fully understand the details. Actually, I'm not trying to understand it. LOL. The only thing I understood was that the main girl is like having her revenge or something. 

Anyway, back to reality, my first night shift is over... I think it went well somehow. I was able to learn and had some experience of doing things alone and simultaneously. Haha... Although sometimes I was also getting some help. But I think I was able to do things mostly with myself especially the critical parts wherein I should really be learning already. I am thankful that my seniors were all helpful. The only thing that I did not like that much about my night shift was me being a buzzer beater. But like what one of my seniors told me, it's fine at least I'll be able to learn how to work fast. Haha...   

Dreaming permits each and every one of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of our lives. -William Dement

Wala lang. Haha... Last night kasi I had a dream wherein parang I was able  to let out some of my feelings to a certain people. It's not that I'm mad or angry at them. I'm just somewhat annoyed at the two of them. They are the two sisters who live in our house. They're like helpers and my parents are  paying for the younger sibling's school. Minsan kasi naaasar ako sa kanila. Minsan parang walang pakialam. Tapos kala mo kung sinong mabait yung bata pero nilalaglag naman yung ate nya. Tapos ang tigas ng ulo. Pag napagalitan nagsusumbong sa nanay nya. Pag may nagawang kasalanan, hindi umiimik. Kala mo wala syang nagawang mali. Frustrations lang siguro.  Pag gising ko kasi as in I could really remember about it. In my dream, I was like telling them how they annoy me, na ang kakapal ng face nila etc. ,etc. I could somehow remember how angry I was in my dream to the point na I want to laugh after maalala ko sya nung magising ako. Ang kulit kasi. Super galit talaga ako na I needed a friend in my dream para mailabas pa yung galit ko. Haha...

Speaking of dreams, can I just talk about the dreams that I could remember? Meron kasing ilan na super hindi  ko alam kung bakit ko ba napapanaginipan. Like nung  birthday ko, I dreamed about the guy who gave me flowers during my 19th birthday. I dreamed na we were watching a movie and tabi kami. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko sya napanaginipan nanaman. Actually I already had a few dreams about him when I was still in college. Wag ka, they're all sweet and nakakakilig. And at that time, I wish  they were all true. Merong nakatambay lang kami sa rooftop daw ng building namin (samantalang wala namang rooftop yung building. LOL.). Meron ding nakaupo kami inside a building tapos super close daw kami. And then we went back to the classroom together holding hands. Meron ding umalis daw sya tapos pag-balik nya may pasalubong syang KitKat for me. Meron pang iba pero yan lang yung mga naaalala ko pa until now. 

Tapos meron din about the other guy. Yung recent ko. Hehe... Merong nakaupo kami sa damuhan in front of a creek? Tapos we are so close din and then he hugged me. Yun talaga as in super parang totoo. Haha... Meron pa ata pero yun lang naalala ko ngayon. Grabe talaga frustrations ko. I'm so pathetic. Anyway, I've moved nanaman from them. Ang wish ko lang ngayon eh sana makahanap na ulit ako ng iba. Para masaya na ulit ang buhay. LoL.

Speaking of makahanap, I'm watching Personal Preference. Yung kay Lee Min Ho and Son Ye Jin. Ang gwapo ni Lee Min Ho. Ang manly-manly nya  tingnan. Haha... Crush ko na din sya. Pero Joo Ji Hoon is still on top. I'm not sure pa kung sino top 2 ko - JGS or LMH. Pero kasi loyalista ako kaya baka JGS pa rin. 

I bought some books again. I know dapat hindi pa ngayon, kaso lang sale kasi kaya di ko napigilan. Beautiful Dead series by Eden Maguire. I already bought the 3 books pero isa pa lang natatapos ko kasi nga kakatapos pa lang ng night ko ang I'm still watching House at dumagdag pa sila LMH. Next time ko na  lang ibblog pag tapos ko na hanggang 4th book. Malapit na rin kasi i-release yung last. 

Yun lang muna. Ang kulit nung quote no? Kakaloka kasi minsan yung mga panaginip ko. Kala  ko totoo. LOL.

Birthdays are nature’s way of telling us to eat more cake

Yup it's my 23rd birthday!Although I'm not sure if I should be happy because... I'm getting older! LOL. It was a so-so birthday. Almost everybody I care about have greeted me - family, co-staff, HS and college friends... I'm also glad that the retreat master  did not make a big fuss about my birthday. Luckily they did not make me share in front of everyone, lead the prayer or be a mass reader (actually the latter two would be fine, but you know I still want to avoid them.~wink). They just sang and greeted me. I'm also quite glad and I feel nice because I was able to have a confession and attend the mass. But actually, I was waiting for someone to greet me. Although I know he wouldn't do something what I was dreaming he would. I was just waiting for him to at least greet me. Well, he greeted me in facebook and added two words which somehow should make me really happy. He said "miss you..." I know it doesn't really mean something special. He just misses our time together in the unit. I also miss him. If I haven't moved on already, this would hurt me. Because I know he just misses me as a friend while I was expecting more. LOL. Anyway, he made me feel better somehow by saying that. 

Anyway, I miss my batchmates/unit friends. I wanted to celebrate with them but I was so sleepy and I wanted to rest. I hope we can have some time soon together. Nope not birthday blues. I just miss them. I've been actually missing them ever since I had my PM and Night shifts. And also the other one. I miss him. I haven't seen him for like... 2 weeks? Ok, enough before I could  write something more which would sound pathetic. LOL.

Pre-Birthday blues... Seriously!?

It's just hours before another year starts for me, and I don't know why I'm feeling this way. I'm feeling down... not really depressed, just down. And maybe anxious... for I don't know what. Seriously, I don't know why. Maybe I'm just tired? Because I'm feeling so sleepy? Or maybe because I'm going to my workplace tomorrow instead of celebrating and resting?  Well, technically I'm not 'working' tomorrow because we have this retreat thing. But still, I was actually hoping that I would be spending most of my birthday at home or somewhere else except at the hospital. 

A few minutes ago, I watched this video about a very tiny baby who was able to undergone a lot of surgeries which added to my blues and made me cry... hard. So now, I'm feeling more tired and I feel that I really need to sleep now but it feels like I also don't want to sleep yet.

I would like to expect something tomorrow, but of course, I can't since I know nothing special would really happen. I hate this feeling. It's like I'm feeling nervous but I don't know why I should be. This feeling really sucks. Probably it would be better if no one would  know about tomorrow. 

Sucks... greatly.

I really love Grey's Anatomy's season finales

Yup, it was only yesterday that I was finally able to finish Grey's Anatomy Season 6. What can I say? I really, really love their finales. There is always something big sa dulo at hanging sya. Parang super exciting kasi ng mga buhay ospital nila. At grabe, eto na ata yung season na super nag-paiyak sa kin. Ang dami kong episode na iniyakan. As in, yesterday, before I went to work, super iyak ako. Pinilit ko kasi tapusin kahapon bago ako umalis. Buti hindi namaga yung mata ko. lol. At ngayong season ko lang na realize how I really love Meredith and Derek together. Patrick Dempsey is hot. Haha... Looking forward for the next season. 

Currently watching House. Ganun pa rin naman yung flow ng stories nila. Pero kasi naaaliw ako sa kanila. Minsan kasi kahit pano may matututunan ka rin. Medyo matatagalan pa bago ko to matapos kasi from the start of ako ng season 6. Tapos Heroes naman. I'm also trying to watch Kuroshitsuji II at Fairy Tail kaya lang ang bagal ng streaming. 

Haaayyst. Kamusta naman ang body clock ko? Sana matapos na tong night duties ko. So far ok naman. Ok lang naman talagang may  manganak. Basta private at NSD. haha... At sana hindi buzzer beater. Kanina muntik nanaman. Buti medyo matagal-tagal pa bago nag fully. Kakaasar kasi ang tagal ng endorsement. 6am Andun na silang lahat, nag-chichikahan lang. Eh kung nag eendorsan na eh di maaga sana akong naka-endorse. Tsaka nag nakakaasar sa buzzer beater, pagod ka na, inaantok tapos kelangan mo pang tapusin yun kahit na dapat hindi na ikaw yun. Buti sana kung AM duty. Pag PM kasi tsaka Night, nakakaasar. Pag PM, gusto mo na umuwi kasi gabi na, nakakaantok na. Pag night naman, super inaantok ka na. Ang nakaasar pa pag night ka, pag inantok ka pag-uwi, kelangan ng itulog agad. Pag pinilit pa, mahirap na makatulog at sasakit ang ulo. Pag nagising ka na tapos kulang pa angtulog, inaantok pero hindi ka na makatulog. Tapos sasakit nanaman ang ulo. Ay nako...

Sinasamantala ko na ang panonood kasi I'm off bukas. Meaning hindi ako papasok ngayong gabi. Bukas na ulit ng gabi. Kahit inaantok ako, go lang. Madami pa akong gustong gawin sa harap ng laptop - manood ng anime/k-drama/series, mag-basa ng mangga/manhwa, mag-download ng games at mag-laro. So little time. Gusto ko na rin kasi bumili ng bagong book. Pag natapos ko hanggang Heroes, bibili na ulit ako. Tska medyo kasi nag-iipon ako. Kaya super pinipigil ko bumili. Tska pag  nag-basa ako, hindi ko nanaman matatapos yung mga pinapanood ko. Aabutan na ko ng next season. At matatambakan ng episodes. 

Makanood na nga lang ulit.

Full LR + 3 SB + 1 CODE-turned-TAHBSO + Toxic OB-RODS and Orders = 16 Exhausting Hours

What a day! Grabe as in naiisip ko talaga kanina "what else could go wrong?" Parang lahat na ng tao kanina DR. Buti na lang talaga puro mababait yung mga ka-duty ko. Hindi yung pababayaan ka na lang. Buti na lang hindi nakisabay ang surgery kanina. Kinilabutan talaga ako dun sa twins na SB. Mas kinilabutan pa ako nung nag-code. Ang galing talaga nila. Hindi ko kasi alam kung anong gagawin ko. Stay ba ako sa LR na puro orders na o tutulong ako sa kanila na nag-kakagulo na dun at mukang pampasikip lang ako. Worst straight duty ako! Kaya sa kin rin lahat bumagsak yung  punong LR! Yung 2 kinatatakutan kong seniors, kaduty ko pareho. Yung isa PM, isa Night. Medyo nag-prepare na ko sa worst dahil nga binigla naman ako sa DR at naaligaga ako. Pero ayun, sila pa yung super tulong. Siguro medyo pinag-bigyan ako kasi ako nga yung pinakakulelat sa lahat ng DR dahil madalas scrub ako sa kabila. Pero alam ko next time, hindi na ako pag-bibigyan. Hehe... Natuwa talaga ako sa kanilang lahat. Kasi super tulong pati yung isa na hindi ko ineexpect. As in. Kelangan ko talagang galingan sa susunod. Kasi kaya ko naman kung pa-isa-isa. Wag muna ganon kabigla kasi nga nagsisimula pa ako.

Tapos habang pauwi ako, naalala ko yung dinasal ko bago ako pumasok. "Please, po kahit ano wag lang nila akong mapagalitan." Ayun, ang kahit ano. In fairness hindi naman ako napagalitan. When I was completing my charts, narealize ko, hindi pa ako umuupo. Night na rin ako nakakain. At grabe hindi ako inaantok. Siguro medyo adrenaline na rin. After nun, nafi-feel ko talaga na my feet were aching. Sana hindi na maulit ang mga ganung pangyayari. 

I'm not one of those women who thinks a man is the answer to everything, but I'm tired of being alone.

             

Lol. I'm just tired. Very tired. Suguro nga medyo ganyan yung naffeel ko. Pero ang totoo, I feel tired for the past few days... physically. Nakakapagod talaga etong mga nakaraang duty days ko. Lagi na lang may nirereceive at stat. Ok lang sana paisa-isa at medyo maikli para makapag-stay din ako sa kabila. Kaso ang nangyayari puro matatagal. Pero kahit papano medyo natututo naman ako sa kabila. Kasi may times din naman na andun ako kahit saglit lang. Grabe talaga, toxic kung toxic. Pag natapos ang isa, may kasunod pa.  

Tapos wala pa akong masyadong outlet. Pano, wala pa rin kaming net. Kaya nga ngayon lang ulit ako nakapag-blog. Pinilit ko na nga lang ngayon kahit usb lang ang net ko. Kasi naman August na po. I need to write. Natatambak na rin ang mga panonoorin at babasahin ko online. Hindi na ko makapag-FB. Wala na rin akong pera pambili ng libro. Actually meron naman, pero kasi  nag-iipon din naman ako. Pag lahat ng YA books ay binasa ko, wala ng matitira sa ATM ko. Pero grabe. Sobrang boredom ko, I was able to read 4 Percy Jackson books. Halos lahat, kinakain ko in one day. Kung hindi lang hardcover ang book 5, eh di  natapos ko na yun. Siguro after book 5 na lang ako magbblog about dun. Sana lumabas na sya. 

Sa sobrang boredom din, natapos ko na ang season 6 ng Lost which is also the last one. Dati talaga tamad na tamad ako manoood nyan. Gusto ko sya kaya lang parang nakakaantok na. Kasi minsan magulo, tapos mapapaisip ka kung ano ba talaga yun. Sa dulo ka lang talaga kasi ma-eenlighten. Ayun... natapos ko din. At isang baldeng luha ang nawala sa kin. Pati energy, kasi super iyak talaga. Buti na lang na download ko lahat before nawalan ng net. Greys, House at Heroes naman ang next pag nagawa na net namin.

At sa sobrang naubos na talaga ang mga gagawin ko, inulit ko nanaman ang Princess Hours. Yun nga lang hanggang episode 6 lang kasi yun lang na download ko. Grabe as in hindi talaga ako nag-sasawa. I  really, really love JJH and YEH. Super crush  at mahal ko pa rin si JJH kahit na naging  pasaway sya.  Gusto ko na namang panoorin ang buong series. Kelangang madownload ko silang lahat. Super love ko talaga ang Princess Hours. Yung You're Beautiful love ko din pero namimili ako ng episode na papanoorin ulit. Gusto ko sanang ulitin ulit kaya  lang bigla akong nakakaisip ng ibang gagawin. Hanggang sa mamimili na lang ako ng scenes/part. Favorite ko kasi yung mga concert nila, Fly me to the moon, tska yung ending. Pero grabe yung Princess Hours, walang pili-pili. Nood lang ng nood kahit medyo alam ko na yung kasunod. Naa-associate ko kasi yung dress ni YEH dun sa mangyayari. Yung tipong pag ganun yung damit nya, alam ko na na malungkot yung susunod or masaya or kung ano nga bang mangyayari, kung may nakakakilig ba or nakakainis yung susunod. Kasi love ko yung mga damit nya. Isa kasi yung sa mga inaabangan ko.  Haaaayyyssst.

Yung quote above, nag-iinarte lang talaga ako. Naiisip ko yan pero ang main reason why I'm blogging is kasi nakakapagod talaga ang mga nakaraang araw. Kaya wag masyadong damdamin. Pero can relate talaga ako. Ngayon kasi hindi ko nanaman yan masyadong iniisip. Kasi nga nadidisappoint lang ako. Wala kasi talaga. Kelan kaya noh? Pwede bang before ako magbirthday? Hahaha... birthday wish?