Actually, I wanted to use this for my title: “Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable", because it fits so much to what I am currently feeling. But the lines are too long so I decided to use the one above which I think is sadder.
I'm actually regretting that I wasn't able to say something about him in front of the director. Ewan ko ba. Pero parang hina-haunt ako ng konsensya ko as a friend. Kasi wala man lang akong nagawa para ipag-tanggol sya. Alam kong wala rin naman akong magagawa. I mean wala ring use kasi mukang super decided na yung director. Pero kasi, naisip ko lang, what if I tried? If only I tried? Malay mo magka-effect? Malay mo lang naman. Nai-imagine ko tuloy ngayon kung ano ba dapat yung sinabi ko. Kung kelan ko ba dapat yun sinabi when the director called for us. Sana nag-matapang ako. Maybe if I was able to do that, kahit na walang nangyari, kahit wala syang effect, at least I tried. At least kahit papano, may nagawa ako for my friend. Nalulungkot tuloy ako. Ilang araw ko na yang iniisip ever since pinatawag kami. Hindi ko matanggal sa isip ko kaya I blogged it na para mailabas ko na. Pero don't worry about me. I'm still being cautious and is extra careful. I'm not falling again. It's just that I'm sad for my friend. Especially that I wasn't able to do anything for him.
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