'Expecting' feels like Sinning

I really have to stop...seriously. This morning someone told me something that somehow made me expect something. I've told myself that I should stop 'expecting' and being feelingera because it would just hurt me in the long run. Because it would be too late if I'm going to stop only when I've confirmed that there is nothing. It feels like sinning, because even though I know that it is bad (for me), I still do it and then I'll feel guilty afterwards. Aargghh... I wasn't even sure if that something that someone told me is true. That someone always teases me so I'm not sure if he was just adding some issues to tease me more or if he was really telling the truth. This is so hard... T_T And also I wasn't sure if that something involves him. I'm sooo malabo. 

Fine I'll tell what that something is. A senior staff was always teasing me that there are two guys who likes me and that they were fighting over me. I know those two, and they're just my friends. They were just really teasing us because I'm somehow close to both of them. Then this morning, he told me that they were able to talk about me during their summer outing. He said that it wasn't just two, but there are three people who likes me or something. He actually said, "ikaw ha, tatlo pala sila". I tried to ask who is the third one but he said that he won't tell more because I might know who was the third one. I'm not sure if that is true or he is just teasing me. Here is the expecting part... All the boys who were in the outing included 4 senior and 2 junior staffs. I think it is impossible that the third one would come from the senior staffs, because they already have their girl friends. That leaves me with the 2 junior staffs. One of them is the one who is already being teased to me. And the other one is him. And when my senior staff told me that there are 3, he was the first one who came to my mind! Waaahhh. I'm really feelingera. T_T I should stop... I should really, really stop.